Author Ann Lee Miller shares an excerpt from her memoir, Boat Days, due out in 2015 about growing up on a yawl.
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| Photo by Kristianne Koch |
If chores built character, I’d be a twelve-year-old Mother Theresa. Today, on a perfect summer morning, I stood in Annie Lee’s porthole-less gloom washing last night’s marinara from Mom’s sailboat emblazoned Melmac.
Fish bones floated in the dying suds, making me shudder. Picking bones out of spaghetti was wrong on so many levels.
Six-year-old R.J. had found something more interesting to do than dry dishes. Dad puttered above deck. Mom slept off her hospital night shift in the bow. The boat echoed quiet—always. Sometimes I wished Mom and Dad would yell at each other like the hotheads on the rundown cabin cruiser next door.
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| My bargained-for freedom – Photo by Kristianne Koch |
I bargained for my freedom by promising Dad I’d wash down the cockpit after lunch.
Matt and Kate Canfield, eight and nine, and I left our little brothers lying on their bellies peering over the edge of the dock at a blowfish inflating like a speckled balloon. We climbed down the Pier 1 ladder, sneakers clenched in our teeth by the laces, into the bay.
We treaded water, looked both ways, and darted into the channel.
A marine engine gunned a couple piers over, and I scrabbled faster with my three appendage stroke, shoes aloft in one hand.
No Wake signs were posted at the end of our pier, but boats barreled through the marina channel at high speeds a dozen times a day. I glanced back at Pier 1 to see if our parents stood on the T of Pier 1 drinking coffee and chatting, ready to shake their fists at law breakers, but no luck.
My shoes felt like they weighed ten pounds, and my breath sucked in and out of my throat.
Kate and Matt matched my snaggled crawl.
A Checkmate powered toward us, looming twice as big as it looked from the dock.
“Oh, crap,” Matt panted.
“Hey! Don’t run us over!” Kate hollered.
The rumble of the engine drowned out her voice.
We swam for all we were worth.
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| We swam for all we were worth – Photo by Kristianne Koch |
The pilot saw us, cut the engine to a crawl. “Are you kids crazy? I coulda killed you.”
Lucky for the pilot we were winded, or Matt would have had choice words to say about his speed.
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| We touched bottom and hauled ourselves, chests heaving, onto the beach.- Photo by Kristianne Koch |
We touched bottom and hauled ourselves, chests heaving, onto the beach. We brushed sand from our feet and donned our semi-dry tennis shoes while spitting out smart-mouthed retorts we should have said to the speedboat driver.
Matt unrolled a soggy notebook paper map of the portion of the island we’d explored last time—which wasn’t much. Two steps off the beach, we’d yelped and yanked sand spurs from our feet—thus the extreme effort to transport shoes today. Kate must not have minded the sand spurs since she grew up to be an acupuncturist.
We hiked into the scraggly trees, Kate in the lead, as usual, even though I was three years older. As an adult, I still happily traipse after Kate.
We hiked through underbrush, so pristine and scratchy on our shins, we were sure no man had ever gone before us. At the tip of the island, wind gusted our salt-stiffened hair against our faces—raising squawks of surprise from me and Kate.
Matt’s summer-shaggy head bent over a perfectly preserved fish skeleton. “Duh. Why do you think they call it Windbreak Island?” He’d go on to earn three master’s degrees.
We harrumphed and marched down the beach on other side of the island, Kate scooping up half a conch shell and rubbing her thumb over the smooth, pink underbelly.
I bent to pick up a piece of blue glass, admiring how the sun warmed it green—the dank quiet of the Annie Lee seemed far away.
“Look! Another island!” Kate shouted.
Matt came up beside us, his fish skeleton forgotten.
The three of us stared, open-mouthed—like Columbus sighting the New World—at the second island snugged behind Windbreak Island.
A ribbon of light water stretched between the islands as though they held hands. It took my brain a second to recall from multiple sailing aground experiences that light color meant shallows. “A sand bar!”
Matt tore past me, his legs pumping as fast as he could make them go.
Kate and I took off after him.
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| I chased Matt across the sandbar – Photo by Kristianne Koch |
Matt careened across the sandbar, high-stepping through calf-deep water until it sloshed above his knees and he face-planted in the surf. He righted himself, and pressed on until he made virgin soil. He turned and faced us, chest puffed out, grinning.
Kate and I sloshed up and collapsed under a tree.
Matt was all for exploring the new land, but Kate and I smacked at the sand fleas munching on our skin and voted for home, food, and a long list of necessities for our next trip—by dinghy.
We waded back across the sandbar, our shoes heavy with grainy silt and water.
Sun fried us from above and reflected up in white rods from the water till it burned fleshy orange through our eyelids.
Kate and I stepped into the brush at the narrow belly of Windbreak Island.
Matt stopped to poke a bug-brown horseshoe crab the size of one of Mom’s Melmac plates.
My stomach growled. “Hurry up!”
Matt ignored me.
Kate and I trudged onto our beach, deciding to swim back to the pier in our shoes.
“Let’s go,” Kate said as Matt appeared.
“Wait!” Matt dug furiously, flinging sand through his legs like Deliah, their English bulldog. “I have to bury my treasure.”
In went his sinister horseshoe shell, Kate’s conch piece, and my blue bottle chunk.
The three of us dropped to our knees and pushed sand over the hole—one of a thousand moments that cemented us like cousins for life.
Matt marked the spot with a stick, hatted by a crumpled Michelob can.
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| Burying my treasure – Photo by Kristianne Koch |
We slumped into the cool green arms of the water, looked both ways and swam for our lunch.
About Ann Lee Miller
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Ann earned a BA in creative writing from Ashland (OH) University and writes full-time in Phoenix. Over 100,000 copies of her debut novel, Kicking Eternity, have been downloaded from Amazon. Her other titles include Avra’s God and The Art of My Life. She guest lectures on writing at several Arizona colleges. She may be reached via Facebook or her website where she blogs on Fridays about sailing as a kid.
Ann’s novel, Tattered Innocence, is on sale in all e-formats through June 15 only for .99 at Amazon.com, BarnesAndNoble.com, and Smashwords.
Back cover:
A tale of passions indulged, denied, and ultimately forgiven: On the verge of bagging the two things he wants most—a sailing charter business and marrying old money—Jake Murray’s fiancée/sole crew member dumps him.
Salvation comes in the form of dyslexic, basketball toting Rachel Martin, the only one to apply for the first mate position he slapped on craigslist. On a dead run from an affair with a married man, Rachel’s salvation is shoving ocean between her and temptation.
Rapid fire dialogue and romantic tension sail Jake’s biker-chick of a boat through hurricanes, real and figurative. A cast of wannabe sailors, Rachel’s ex, Jake’s, a baby—go along for the ride. The many-layered story weaves together disparate strands into a seamless cord. Mother and daughter look eerily alike—down to their lusts.
Their symbiotic bond, forged in the blood of childbirth on the kitchen floor and cemented by their secrets, must be cracked open. A son must go home. Sin must be expunged. Tattered Innocence is for anyone who’s ever woken up sealed in a fifty-gallon drum of their guilt.
Read also on this website:
- Living Aboard—Same-Old-Same-Old When You’re 12, by Ann Lee Miller
- Cruising Children Speak: Cruising children tell us about their experiences growing up aboard.
